Six months ago to the day, today, I vaguely remember how I had gotten to that point. I was frustrated, scared and desiring so many things. I couldn’t understand my life. I was in serious prayer and petitioning the Lord about many, many things!
It wasn’t until about two months later that I recalled what I believe the Lord said to me….Six Months…
The calendar on my phone was marked with a schedule and it said….Six Months….
It must have been profound to me because I counted ahead six months and marked that date. The last few weeks I felt very impressed and moved to do certain things. Nothing very profound. Things maybe I had held off on doing. Things I had just not done because of fear. But in those steps of obedience, I’ve never felt so alive in it…free and fulfilled. Even with certain things seemingly failing apart in certain areas of my life. I had to follow the Father’s instruction and not panic!
The other night I watched the movie “Taken 2″ and there was a section of the movie where the father had been kidnapped and his daughter was on the phone with him. She was listening to his instruction carefully. She had to get him out of danger but to do it quickly before the kidnappers seized her. I fell asleep and had a dream where I was the girl on the phone with my father and he was giving me specific instruction. I remember seeing a live wire and I became fearful and he said “Don’t panic!” That was all I remembered but that was enough! I believe it alerted me and prepared me for these past few weeks. I recalled it and I truly believe that dream gave me the courage and assurance to be obedient to what, I believe, the Lord has been telling me to do in those small steps of obedience.
Today I focused on not losing my faith since I knew today was the day that I believe God was going to do something. What I had been saddened about in a relationship began to flourish again today. Two days ago I received word that there was going to be a change in my job that is going to be a promotion for me. Yesterday, I finally purchased something that would help me be able to start recording music on my laptop. WOW! These were all good things!
As the night draws near today, I’m not responsible for fulfilling what He told me. My responsibility is to believe and to be obedient. Sarah, Abraham’s wife tried to fulfill what God told them about a son. She told Abraham to lay with Hagar, the servant girl, but instead of an Isaac (the promise) they received an Ishmael (only what seems to be the promise, man made)
Honestly, my prayer that evening six months ago was out of desperation. An honest desire to do His will but just not having the courage or understanding to walk in it. God meets us where we are. Prayer is not something that manipulates God to do what we want. It is an opportunity to get to know a loving father and friend. To feel His love as you share your hopes and dreams.
No matter where you are right now. No matter how off course you may be or how discouraged. God wants to be in relationship with you! He loves you and cares for you. He doesn’t condemn us when we mess up. His arms are open and full of so much security and love. Don’t run to someone or something else when things become tumultuous in your life. Settle down….Sit alone and just listen…He’ll meet you there….
…May the Lord continue to bless you as you seek Him and His will for your life…In Jesus Name, Amen…